We’re at this place again. Post, post, post, post, post, break. Post, post, post, break. Yeah. It’s a cycle. I’m okay with it. I’ve been in that spot again where I have a lot to say but can’t find the right way to say it, so I don’t say anything at all. So anyway, here we are again.
There hasn’t been a whole lot to report though, so that’s good. We’ve all had some sort of cold/sinus/illness thing the past week, and Brooke hasn’t wanted to sleep very well, which has been hard on everyone, but I’m thinking/hoping/prayingthat we’ve rounded the curve and that things are getting back to normal.
We had the wonderful Christina take some pictures of Brooke this past weekend. She does such a great job! Here are some of the wonderful shots that she got:
She got so many awesome ones!
There are some with me and Robert in them, and I couldn’t help but feel disappointed in how I looked in them. (nothing Christina did at all, she’s a wonderful photographer…this was all me). I guess when I look in the mirror, I focus on the things I like? I’m phrasing that as a question because I can’t figure out what happened. Like, maybe I just tend to ignore the things I don’t like by not looking at them, but then when a full-body picture is put in front of me, I am drawn to look at the things I don’t like…I can’t figure it out, but regardless, I am not a fan of the pictures that I am in. My co-workers suggested that the color and style of the shirt that I wore wasn’t great for me (which I agree with…I just threw something on), but it’s more than that. Don’t get me wrong, I’m totally happy that I’m at where I am at now, and that my hard work IS showing (measurements are down, scale is down, clothes are big). My disappointment is that it doesn’t seem to SHOW. At least not in the pictures. I thought there would be a clear difference between now and 3 or 6 months ago, and in the pictures, I don’t see it.
these are the two best with me in them
So I will keep on trucking. I’m thisclose to being 40lbs down since September (about 55 total since I had B). I want to keep going down. I guess the pictures are a
gentleswift kick in the butt to keep it up.
And this isn’t me begging for compliments or a bunch of “but you’re doing so great” remarks – (and if you were thinking that, thank you!) – this is just me ranting that I am still not where I want to be, but I know I’ll get there. All in good time. Long, long, time 🙂
I hope everyone’s having a great week so far!