Days like today, I get jealous when I see moms who get to stay at home for the day because of the snow, or who are stay at home moms, and get to take their babies outside and play and enjoy time together. It makes me feel guilty.
Days like today make me hate that we won’t have that memory or pictures to illustrate fun snow days and playing in the snow before she even knows what snow is – especially her ‘first’ snow.
Days like today, I feel like I’m judged at work. Since I do drop off and pick up, and I’m the only one in my group who has that responsibility, I feel like I’m viewed as not working as hard or as much as my co-workers. On a normal day, I feel guilty that I don’t stay at work any longer than necessary because I already feel guilty that Brooke spends 10 hours a day at day care.
Days like today, I hate that I can’t go to CrossFit because I have to leave early since Brooke’s daycare is closing early. And I feel guilty if I do go, because again, not working as hard or as much. And then I feel guilty that I feel guilty.
Days like today, I realize how blessed we are to have found a day care that loves Brooke and is so great with her, but I can’t help but feel like she’s missing out, or I’m missing out.
Days like today, being a working mom sucks, and carrying around guilt is hard, so I’ll try my best to see that it is what it is.
Days like today are rare but boy do they pack a punch.
Days like today, all I can do is pick up my girl and enjoy every second I can with her. She is growing so fast and I can already tell that it is flying by. It’s hard to remember to cherish everything, because of all of the responsibilities and that whole ‘being an adult’ thing, but today is one of those days where I really remember. She’s only little once and everything we can make special, we will.
Stout isn’t so sure about this snowy morning…
Brooke’s a fan of mama being home in the mornings…
I’d say about 3 inches or so.
Playing around in the snow
Someone has learned how to clap!
Now that I have that off of my chest, it is time to go be a jungle gym to one almost 8 month old. 🙂