Oh 2013, you were quite the year. You were one year, as all other years have been, but I feel like I learned and grew more in 2013 than in most previous years. To piggy back on many other bloggers posting about their 2013, here are a few things I learned in 2013.
I learned I am capable of more than I ever thought possible. I created a human (with help, of course). I birthed her. I nurtured her (also with help) and she is growing brilliantly. My body did that. My body is also doing CrossFit, a fitness regimen I never thought I could do. I’m doing it.
I learned that I am the only one in control of my thoughts and actions. I may not always make the best decisions, but I am the only one to blame for them. This is an in progress lesson, one that I don’t believe will ever end, but I’m a better person for knowing that this is how it is.
I learned that my family is really the best. The Brackmann side and the Crawford side. Both of them. The best. Hands down.
I learned that nothing makes me happier than being at home with Robert and Brooke. They are my two favorite people on the entire planet. They make me complete.
I learned that I am in control of what goes into my body. How I feel is directly related to what and how I eat. I’ve made the decision to be better in this aspect of my life, and for the past three months have done awesome at monitoring what goes in.
I learned that friends come and go, even the ones I thought would be around forever. I’ve been disappointed in some friendships this year. I need to let them go and move on. Life’s too short to have to try at a friendship. I think they should come by easy and honestly.
I learned that some of my friends are just like family and I wouldn’t trade them for the world. I am so lucky to be surrounded by so many wonderful, strong, beautiful people.
I learned that I do, in fact, love myself. I’ve had a love/hate relationship with myself for, oh, 28 years. In my 29th year, I’ve discovered that I do love me. I may not be the perfect me, and I have some areas where I can improve and do better, but overall, I love me. I’m imperfectly perfect.
I learned that my looks do not identify who I am. This is also one of those that I’ve struggled with and is a constant lesson. To some, I might be pretty and fit. To others I might be ugly and fat. Now, I think that whatever you see in another person is a reflection of what you see in yourself. I look very hard now to find the beauty in everything, hoping that it translates into finding the beauty within me.
I learned that having a baby changes you…and other people too. Brooke is the best thing that has ever happened to me. She has changed me in ways I cannot even begin to put into words. Ways I wouldn’t ever change back.
I learned that things can wait. Dishes, laundry, vacuuming, etc. These things are small and irrelevant to our lives (to a certain extent). They don’t always have to be done right away. I’d rather play with Brooke while she’s awake than do the dishes and only see her right before she falls asleep. Or to talk with Robert after dinner than scurry right to the kitchen to clean up. I have some improving I can still do on this one, but the everyday chores, though important to do, aren’t life-ending if they don’t get done.
I learned that I really like where I work and who I work with.
I learned that I don’t like to be fussed at in the morning – it makes for a crappy day from the get go. I’ve also learned to not be fussy in the morning. As much as I don’t like it, no one else must like it either. This one’s a work in progress 🙂
I learned that I have some changes to make in 2014. Probably nothing that will define me as a person, but changes nonetheless. My goal is to be a better person in 2014, to love harder, be stronger, try harder, and sleep. Because everyone is happier when they sleep. 🙂