So here we are. Nearly 5 months postpartum. Can I just say that I cannot believe Brooke is almost 5 months old? Time is seriously flying by. She’s getting so big and learning so much.
But this post is about me. Katie. Mom. I know, right?
I have definitely gotten into a groove with how everything works right now. I’m doing daycare drop off and pick up (whereas before I was just doing pick up). It’s surprisingly not as hard as I thought it would be, and it helps that Brooke absolutely loves her daycare teachers.
Work is getting busier, which is good as it kind of keeps my worries off of Brooke (how she’s doing, if she’s eating, sleeping, screaming, etc) but she’s constantly on my mind, regardless of what I have going on. I have found that I am definitely focused on work while I’m at work so I can leave right at 4:30…if not a few minutes before. I’m just itching to play with Brooke by the end of the work day so I want to boogie as soon as possible. I have noticed that I really get irritated if I have to stay late for one reason or another (moreso than before)…I should probably work on that because I know it’s going to happen.
I’ve been doing CrossFit now for 6 weeks. I go on my lunch breaks, and try to go at least 3 times a week, though some weeks I can make it 4 times. I have to say that CrossFit is pretty awesome. I’m by no means an expert (like I said, I’m only 6 weeks in) but I feel like some of my movements are getting better and I’m getting stronger. When I first started, my squat form was awful. I always felt like I was either going to fall face first or on my butt, but my squat form has improved greatly! I have increased my weights a little bit (like with a strict shoulder press, I’ve gone up 5lbs) but mainly am at the same weights I started with a month and a half ago. I really, really love it. It’s always a different WOD (workout of the day) so it’s not like I’m doing the same stuff over and over again (like with Body Pump…it was the same ‘release’ for several months, until they made a new release, then it was that same one over and over). I definitely don’t get bored and definitely challenge myself.
For instance, Friday the WOD was a 18 minute AMRAP (as many reps as possible) with 15 box jumps, 12 push press (shoulder press with a little bounce in the knees), and 9 sit ups. Um, if anyone knows me from my high school volleyball days, you know that I DO NOT jump. It’s not that I don’t jump. It’s that I think I’m physically incapable of jumping. So my ‘box jumps’ as of late have just been ‘box steps’ (instead of jumping, I just step onto the box, then step off). Well today, I decided to try jumping, but instead of using the 20” box, I stacked 3 45lb weights and jumped onto those instead (probably 12-14” high). And I DID IT. I did 6 reps of everything plus 12 ‘box’ jumps. So I’ll keep doing that instead of stepping, and in a few weeks, I’ll probably be able to add another 45lb weight, and then after that, I should be able to get onto the box.
It’s great because I can go at my own pace and do what I am capable of doing without trying to kill myself. There is always a way to scale a work out back. Like, I cannot do a push up. Not even with assistance bands (tried today…womp womp…) but the alternative is to do ring rows (hanging at an angle holding onto gymnastics rings and pulling myself up that way). It’s not exactly the same but it works the same muscles so I can work my way into pull ups. I can’t do a real, legit push up to save my life (the ones on the toes, I mean). I have been doing them on my knees but they’ve been getting ‘easy’ (I use that term loosely) so my coach told me from now on to do push ups on the box.
It’s hard, engages the core more than knee push ups, and will ultimately help me do real-people push ups So I think that’s why I like it, it’s always challenging and there is always something to work towards. Right now my goals are real box jumps, real push ups, and one pull up. And double unders (jump rope, rope passes twice in one jump…).
So but…I’m also disappointed (like you didn’t see that coming…) I’m doing CrossFit 3 or 4 times per week. I’m trying to also walk and/or run 30 minutes on some of the days that I don’t CF. This doesn’t always happen (and the past 2 weeks has been bad, mainly because everyone in our house has been sick, myself included). Since starting CF, I’m only down 4 pounds. I haven’t measured in a week or so, but I’m down I think 4 inches or so. Which is good, I know. But I’m 18lbs away from my pre-pregnancy weight and it’s really irritating me. I’m eating around 1700-1800 calories per day (maybe this is too much?) and it’s at least 75% clean (most of the time). I’m not sure what else I could be doing or what I’m doing that I shouldn’t be doing. It’s frustrating and irritating and I shouldn’t care and should be happy that I’m active and healthy (you know, minus weight). I shouldn’t care what the scale says. But I do.
Anyway, I’m just going to keep on keeping on and hope that the scale catches up. I should probably hide it anyway, but I do like when it shows a lower number. I’ll check back in periodically and let you know my progress, but as long as those measurements and scale keep going down, I’ll be happy 🙂 And as long as Brooke is happy, I’m good!