It’s weird to think about why and how things happen. We usually don’t really think about it because, for the most part, we are used to things happening all the time. But if you sit down and start trying to decipher the meaning of things that happen, why they happen, you are likely going to end up in a minds-jumbled mess with less clarity than before you started trying to clear things up for yourself. It’s those “why’s” that’ll drive us bananas though. You know the ones I’m talking about. Why did I eat those jalapeños last night? Why did I accept this job? Why did I get angry at someone I love? The answers usually follow with – because I was hungry and wanted them; I need a paycheck now so I won’t have to work forever; they said/did something silly that irritated me at the time but I love them nonetheless.
I am slowly learning and trying to grasp that there will always be things that happen that will have no significant reason or no reason that is good enough to settle our minds. Like, why is there war? Why is there cancer? Why are there sicknesses and diseases in general?
The only answer that I have found that not only settles me but is also understood by so many I know and others who’s stories I have read, is that these things happen to us because God wills them to happen and He truly believes we are not only strong enough to handle them, but that we will learn from them and teach others along the way.
For those of you who know me well know that I am not a bible-beater and I don’t live a sinless life, but that is truly the one and only comforting and plausible reason for all happenings, good and bad.
This past weekend, I met Libby Ryder. Libby is 27 years old, is married and has a gorgeous daughter, Ava. Libby also just beat cancer. I read her story and was so intrigued and drawn in that I almost felt like I knew her. Her story hit so close to home, with bring the same age and recently married (and we will be having kids one day) that I felt like I needed to do something. That is part of the reason of why I donate 50% of all sales to the Ryder’s. The other part of the reason that I donate is because in Libby, I can truly see and feel her understanding of the fact that God’s plan for us is just that, it’s his plan. Through her whole fight, she was strong and learned things everyday (she may not say that, but just by reading her story you can tell that she did). She had moments of weakness and many “why me?” moments, just like any of us would, but her foundation was always that God knows what is best. Libby is an incredibly amazing woman and is such an inspiration to me and many of my friends, and she has touched so many lives by just being herself and sharing her trust in God and publishing her struggles, I think she is just amazing.
I suppose this is kind of like a journal entry more than anything, to remind myself that when things get to be a little too much to handle, that it is all in His plan for me. I’m not meant to understand why or how, just to learn to understand to the best of my ability why He would choose me to live out His plan, and really, after a struggle, we always come out stronger and better.